
I am in 35 year committed ENM open relationship. I have experience playing with couples and we all had a great time. I'm a 34 old woman looking for some adventure. I've honestly been struggling with my masculinity, I've always forced myself to like women but I keep avoiding the thoughts I have when I see an attractive man, I put on a mask for the environment I'm in and I feel like I'm becoming a shell, I want to know if these are just intrusive thoughts or feelings I feel are something more.